i am tired. i went to work three days this work to get ready for my presentation on monday and to get my kids' schedules figured out. glad i've been going for a few hours because it's definitely going to be an adjustment going back full-time. i'm looking forward to it, though. i miss my kids. i'm going down from 13 to 5 on my caseload so far. i called a student's home today to see how their summer was and the student informed me they're moving to new mexico next month... still have to confirm, but it's hard saying goodbye to kids.

marriage is hard. i'm realizing what a difficult person i must be to live with. i need to be consciously aware of my words and actions and how they affect my relationship. our opposite schedules definitely affect me a lot. one good things is that r was able to change his days off to thurs/fri. same hours, which isn't great, but it will be nice to spend friday nights with r again. i miss date nights.

r made the comment last night that i seem "checked out" spiritually, and he's right. it has been too long since i prayed more than when a friend asks for it or i need something, and i can't remember the last time i read my bible or any other theological books. i feel really shitty about this, and i know that i need to work on it.